This is my language..

Been consumed quite number of beer this weekend. My sore throat and fever ain't gonna stop me from going out with my cousin-sister-partner-in-crime, Ivy. Also got the chance to meet up with few of her friends which is..all I can say ‘orang lama’. God, anyways..I try not to be ’sarcastic’ in front of them. For I’m fully aware that I can be a bit of ‘celupar’ when I converse with others. Tried hard to be as polite as I can, but somehow along the way I burst out. Hahaha..I knew this would happen whenever I go out with her. Especially if I got myself under the influence. ayoo..
We and our own native language..in command.
It’s been so long since I talk 100% Lundayeh. Except if I go balik kampungla, then I will talk Lundayeh with ma’. With her, Ivy I can always practice my not-so-fluent Lundayeh and ‘talk back’ if something ‘interesting’ caught our attentions. Woman..can't do much about it.
So there was this one guy, (no name mention here) who sort of ‘miang’ la..y’kno. He's a good friend of my cousin’s BF. From the way he talks, I can see how ego this guy was. I'm not trying to being judgemental here but hey..It's so obvious ba! Telling all about his ‘possession’ and stuff like me gonna melt down and bow my knees to him. WTF?? I know, some guys are like that not all la. The kind who uses his materials to flattered the females. But not me, dude. I’m sorry.
Ok back to my main point. Many think Lundayeh is a ‘weird’ language. Even my roomies said, the lang sound a bit like Siamese..really ah? If you caught a chance to hear how we speak our native language only you understand how beautiful our ‘bala’ is. The softness of the pronounciation.
I still reminisce when I was little how my late grandma sitting near the house parlour telling us folklores while she was singing in a mellow voice, everytime I go to her place. She even taught me how to play Kelinang, Tawaks, most of the musical instruments. And now I feel so rugi cuz I never took the lesson seriously.
Wah..talking 'bout this makes me miss my kampung only.
Anyhows, I planned to throw a session with all my close friends before I head off home. But before that I still gotta do a lot of things, related to my body and soul. Yerp..looking forward for it.Soon, if u notice something strange in me. Just..smile okay. Need not to advice nor to judge me in future.
Weellll…I have high hope that my future generation will continue speaking our language and yet to relive the Lundayehs community..So, anun bala? do keleh’?

Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum (What's wrong with me?)
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum (Why do I feel like this?)
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum(I'm going crazy now)
No more gas in the rearCan't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing saidCan't even speak about it
Out my life out my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mindIt can control you
It's too close for comfort
Put on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play niceWatch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia
Bum bum be-dum
bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnectin' phone calls
The phone don't even ring
I gotta get outOr figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Put on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Release me from this curse I'm in
Trying to remain tameBut I'm struggling
If you can go, go, goI think
I'm going to oh, oh, oh
Put on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the lightDisturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

ChChCh..Changes

Everybody needs changes in their life. I really need one now. Pronto!!..Being in shit hole ain't a nice feeling to have, y'kno. And I think I might go cuckoo if I carry on my life this.

I can't blame YOU. I realized that I'd made some stoopid decisions and NOW.. I gotta face the consequences. Being the mistaken.

To Mimie, I'm very sorry that I took such unimaginable decision. But I will come back for a blasting sessions, I promise you that. And, and we can always see other on the weekends ma..hehehe..

I'm looking for a new perspective. To unwind and yet to rediscover my trueself there. I hope so.

To that person, who think you were responsible for this, it's okay. I never blame you, dude.

I can only hope and pray for your happiness and well being.